have you ever felt it necessary to dumb yourself down?

• recently in random chatter– it was mentioned by this one character that he has overtime.. lowered his level of conversation– so he can more easily take part in everyday/nonsense talk with most people around him (new yorkers in this instance).  hearing this.. i instantly take a step back (in my head) and think.. god.. thats a bit high n mighty and condescending of you.. with a touch of asshole… and also thinking.. so in what place are you putting yourself if you think that so many around you couldnt even converse at the level that you’re even thinking at!??!  (in case you’re wondering.. i, myself was not personally offended– probably because i know this person means no ill towards me).. but i did mentally react to what was said.  what i said?.. i really dont remember.  ”oh gee?  oh wow.. “, perhaps?.. i dont recall.

but seriously?.. i have– thinking about the topic later on.. i do dumb myself down at instances to speak to people:

• if im speaking to someone who’s not fluent in english– i do use simple english to explain, describe or ask for something.  i thought i was being considerate.. so the conversation would flow more..
• everyday comp lingo (im not declaring myself a tech geek in any way– but i am surprised at the amount of tech/computer knowledge that most people have.)  some recent things that ive overheard: how do i get that picture and email it to that person?– just the picture.  what’s wi-fi, and what is wi-fi capability?  how do i forward this?  sure, i can give you that file in eps (no dimwit.. you cant just tag the file w/.eps), what?.. why the fuck is that picture so blurry blown up to 12 x 10 feet?.. i did email you a photo (a shitty low-res jpg).. yes.. i have dumbed myself down when called to assist in such instances..
• and yes, again guilty.  speaking to random people.. just nonsense talk to pass the time.. i guess i do convert over to “no-think.. just talk, say whatever mode”.  absolutely no condescending underlining reason to when and why i do it.. but its been done.. (this isnt to take from the fact that i can be straight up cocky tho– there is a cocky streak to me.. i like to think of it as just competitive with a healthy dose of confidence.)

Ever been asked by someone what your pet peeves are? at the moment.. i would usually be blank with a response— because i cant think of anything that really buggs me that much to remember (thats something im horrible with— i forget who im suppose to hate/dislike.. or if i remember who.. i forget why.. or what they did to me— my friends many times will be better at remembering such reasons— eventhough they may not be the hater)

so this past week.. i was quite irritable and these are some things i will admit got under my skin more than usual (in no particular order):

• random guy on the train with shitty earphones (you know the oldschool ones that sit on top of your earlobe and has that removable.. what is it.. i dont even know anymore.. that removable “foam” ear, cushion thing?!??) music was absolutely blasting out of his ipod— sitting beside him.. i could hear his entire playlist (from 6th ave.. all the way home) which consisted of a mix of oldschool hip-hop.. (50cent- first album), j-lo (i read today that shes renamed herself “Lo-La”.. eRr.. okay..), random crazy-hype techno stuff (an early-night rave on the L train), and then the last thing i heard before i jumped off my stop— backstreet boys!.. backstreet boys!!! no offense— i love me some backstreet too during times when id prefer to lay dead on the couch with a blanket, some chick flicks, chocolate and boy-band jams… but this was a grown man. more power to him, i suppose.. this goes towards my belief that all guys are closet boy-band fans— and will usually know the chorus to all the boy-band chart toppers. i really do wonder if that man knew his playlist was playing so loud everyone could hear it… it was quite annoying. but my own damn fault for leaving out my music when syncing the night before.
• coming upon a site— and having music auto-play. mygoddddddd.. i cant stand it. dont these people know itunes is already on with the background music when people are online meandering anyway?
• tangled ear-budds. yeah.. nothing new.. but that one particular morning— while holding my coffee and bagel.. it greatly frustrated me. i think it was more tangled than the norm tho. (actually that was also the morning that once i did get the mess untangled and plugged it into my phone.. discovered that i did not sync my music— wtf!??!?!?! blah!) however, i will admit.. sometimes i do enjoy walking w/no soundtrack— but i dont really enjoy train rides w/out.
• people who constantly complain and cant/wont get their shit together so i can finish my shit and go home… hence, making us even have to face “time-crunch time.. lets whipp this shit together time” AND stay an extra hour.. when it could have entirely been avoided. (i get it.. situations change.. go with the flow.. but some things can be avoided if just a regular pace can be reached— and it doesnt help when im being told that ive overestimated on my time needed)

i doubt these things would get under my skin so much under normal circumstances— maybe its the change in weather and all i really want to do is crawl up into bed or my couch.. or its nothing more than im pmsing.. who knows. i may not have been the greatest company— actually.. no.. im fine. ive seen other girls in their weeks of frustration.. and you know what?? im a walk in the park!..

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Ailurophile A cat-lover.
Assemblage A gathering.
Becoming Attractive.
Beleaguer To exhaust with attacks.
Brood To think alone.
Bucolic In a lovely rural setting.
Bungalow A small, cozy cottage.
Chatoyant Like a cat’s eye.
Comely Attractive.
Conflate To blend together.
Cynosure A focal point of admiration.
Dalliance A brief love affair.
Demesne Dominion, territory.
Demure Shy and reserved.
Denouement The resolution of a mystery.
Desuetude Disuse.
Desultory Slow, sluggish.
Diaphanous Filmy.
Dissemble Deceive.
Dulcet Sweet, sugary.
Ebullience Bubbling enthusiasm.
Effervescent Bubbly.
Efflorescence Flowering, blooming.
Elision Dropping a sound or syllable in a word.
Elixir A good potion.
Eloquence Beauty and persuasion in speech.
Embrocation Rubbing on a lotion.
Emollient A softener.
Ephemeral Short-lived.
Epiphany A sudden revelation.
Erstwhile At one time, for a time.
Ethereal Gaseous, invisible but detectable.
Evanescent Vanishing quickly, lasting a very short time.
Evocative Suggestive.
Fetching Pretty.
Felicity Pleasantness.
Forbearance Withholding response to provocation.
Fugacious Fleeting.
Furtive Shifty, sneaky.
Gambol To skip or leap about joyfully.
Glamour Beauty.
Gossamer The finest piece of thread, a spider’s silk
Halcyon Happy, sunny, care-free.
Harbinger Messenger with news of the future.
Imbrication Overlapping and forming a regular pattern.
Imbroglio An altercation or complicated situation.
Imbue To infuse, instill.
Incipient Beginning, in an early stage.
Ineffable Unutterable, inexpressible.
Ingénue A naïve young woman.
Inglenook A cozy nook by the hearth.
Insouciance Blithe nonchalance.
Inure To become jaded.
Labyrinthine Twisting and turning.
Lagniappe A special kind of gift.
Lagoon A small gulf or inlet.
Languor Listlessness, inactivity.
Lassitude Weariness, listlessness.
Leisure Free time.
Lilt To move musically or lively.
Lissome Slender and graceful.
Lithe Slender and flexible.
Love Deep affection.
Mellifluous Sweet sounding.
Moiety One of two equal parts.
Mondegreen A slip of the ear.
Murmurous Murmuring.
Nemesis An unconquerable archenemy.
Offing The sea between the horizon and the offshore.
Onomatopoeia A word that sounds like its meaning.
Opulent Lush, luxuriant.
Palimpsest A manuscript written over earlier ones.
Panacea A solution for all problems
Panoply A complete set.
Pastiche An art work combining materials from various sources.
Penumbra A half-shadow.
Petrichor The smell of earth after rain.
Plethora A large quantity.
Propinquity An inclination.
Pyrrhic Successful with heavy losses.
Quintessential Most essential.
Ratatouille A spicy French stew.
Ravel To knit or unknit.
Redolent Fragrant.
Riparian By the bank of a stream.
Ripple A very small wave.
Scintilla A spark or very small thing.
Sempiternal Eternal.
Seraglio Rich, luxurious oriental palace or harem.
Serendipity Finding something nice while looking for something else.
Summery Light, delicate or warm and sunny.
Sumptuous Lush, luxurious.
Surreptitious Secretive, sneaky.
Susquehanna A river in Pennsylvania.
Susurrous Whispering, hissing.
Talisman A good luck charm.
Tintinnabulation Tinkling.
Umbrella Protection from sun or rain.
Untoward Unseemly, inappropriate.
Vestigial In trace amounts.
Wafture Waving.
Wherewithal The means. Woebegone Sorrowful, downcast

whoever made this list is a goddess (or god)